Lana
After returning home, Kai is always near me, saying he wants to be close to me, but he only touches me in a way that means he wants sex. I keep thinking about how he hurt me – the refuge worker told me it was rape, but I don’t want to believe that.
I hate him touching me, but know if I don’t, he’ll be angry and demanding and may hurt me again.
One day Kai sees me pull away from him when he touches me. He asks me what’s wrong. I try to explain that I’m still struggling after what happened and I just need a little more time. Kai gets angry and accuses me of “bringing up the past” and “trying to make him feel bad”.